Blog is under construction because of a CERTAIN SOMEONE. *glares*
Shall update when I find time.
In summary, people owe me money (and my company a good deal of it), CAF practices had started, and other than a lot of info, I haven't got anything down for my FYP yet.
*shoots self*
2010-06-21
2010-06-05
Supposedly I have a lot to update on...even if I'm not in the mood to. Wait. None of you care anyway. I will rant here. LEAVE IF YOU DON'T WANT TO HEAR ME RANT.
CAF screening has came and went. I sucked downright for the first screening due to not sleeping enough and because I had a Food Packing activity in the morning and only got 2 hours of sleep. The second wasn't so bad after I modified some of the more difficlt poses to suit my crappy self. Sad to say, though I tried my best, a CERTAIN SOMEONE who was supposed to look wasn't looking or paying attention at all.
It was either that he was confident because I had CAF experience or he just couldn't care at all. I strongly feel that it was the latter. Anyhow, he told me and Murphy that it is for the best that we change characters for CAF, for Bleach characters are overdone. Only after we both had bought our haori. Toky and Benjamin weren't there, but I suppose that even if they were, they aren't going to budge and change characters. Especially when Toky has everything done except maybe his wig for Ichigo. I don't think Benjamin wants to change his mind for Urahara either. This leaves me or nii-san, and nii-san has just stated that he refuses hands-down to change characters, which leaves me.
When Wen Hui suggested Nagase, I had an explosion of ideas afterward for Nagase's costume. The only problem was probably the wig. BUT. Okaa-san was against me changing characters. She said that it was my fault that I didn't make up my mind properly, that I was in such a rush that I actually spent $49 on my haori first before the screening even started and now I wanted to switch to Nagase the haori was useless and it was all my fucking fault. I have nothing to say to that other than I was too damn stupid to actually even buy the haori in the first place and didn't anticipate him wanting us to change characters.
The only thing I wish for now is that I'll tide through all this and that there will be a way out. But you all don't give a damn anyway, do you? You don't. So why I be the one giving a damn when you don't? I bet no one would have noticed even if I lost an arm or leg or even cared. I bet you WOULDN'T EVEN CARE IF I TOLD YOU THAT I WANTED TO COMMIT SUICIDE RIGHT THERE IN YOUR FACE.
In fact, I think you'll even celebrate my death and encourage it, won't you? You could have been so much better off without me interfering with your life, no? ^_____^ You could have saved so much money that you'll have the money for a car and even a bungalow. You could never have to ever worry for another presence in the house befouling the place. YOU COULD HAVE OPTED FOR AN ABORTION RATHER THAN GIVE BIRTH TO A FOUL BEING UNWORTHY OF EVEN CALLED SCUM LIKE ME.
FUCK YOU ALL. YOU DON'T GIVE A FLYING FUCK AT ALL RIGHT FROM THE START. I'M MERELY NOTHING BUT A TOOL TO YOU. SO IF YOU DON'T CARE, WHY THE HELL SHOULD I?
FUCK YOU!!!!!!!!!!!!
CAF screening has came and went. I sucked downright for the first screening due to not sleeping enough and because I had a Food Packing activity in the morning and only got 2 hours of sleep. The second wasn't so bad after I modified some of the more difficlt poses to suit my crappy self. Sad to say, though I tried my best, a CERTAIN SOMEONE who was supposed to look wasn't looking or paying attention at all.
It was either that he was confident because I had CAF experience or he just couldn't care at all. I strongly feel that it was the latter. Anyhow, he told me and Murphy that it is for the best that we change characters for CAF, for Bleach characters are overdone. Only after we both had bought our haori. Toky and Benjamin weren't there, but I suppose that even if they were, they aren't going to budge and change characters. Especially when Toky has everything done except maybe his wig for Ichigo. I don't think Benjamin wants to change his mind for Urahara either. This leaves me or nii-san, and nii-san has just stated that he refuses hands-down to change characters, which leaves me.
When Wen Hui suggested Nagase, I had an explosion of ideas afterward for Nagase's costume. The only problem was probably the wig. BUT. Okaa-san was against me changing characters. She said that it was my fault that I didn't make up my mind properly, that I was in such a rush that I actually spent $49 on my haori first before the screening even started and now I wanted to switch to Nagase the haori was useless and it was all my fucking fault. I have nothing to say to that other than I was too damn stupid to actually even buy the haori in the first place and didn't anticipate him wanting us to change characters.
The only thing I wish for now is that I'll tide through all this and that there will be a way out. But you all don't give a damn anyway, do you? You don't. So why I be the one giving a damn when you don't? I bet no one would have noticed even if I lost an arm or leg or even cared. I bet you WOULDN'T EVEN CARE IF I TOLD YOU THAT I WANTED TO COMMIT SUICIDE RIGHT THERE IN YOUR FACE.
FUCK YOU ALL. YOU DON'T GIVE A FLYING FUCK AT ALL RIGHT FROM THE START. I'M MERELY NOTHING BUT A TOOL TO YOU. SO IF YOU DON'T CARE, WHY THE HELL SHOULD I?
FUCK YOU!!!!!!!!!!!!
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